Here's a little drawing "Perspective". I do sometimes feel as though I am falling off center, to one side or the other. I rest alone, toss about in the past, and leap like a mermaid toward the future. Now that I have made my bed (painting)...I'm awakened to the fact it might be a sexual thing. I am 49. How ironic this life event of mine coincides (maybe) with "men-oh-pause". Can I deny it? Again and again I'm made to rise up and learn something new about myself and what stories I believe in.
I really think you are talented and I like the fact that your paintings have meaning that touch many people. Understanding the therapeutic nature of this series, I think you should not stop. I so don't want you to lose your house - an old school house added on to - would love to see a painting of that! The reality is people love to buy poignant, nostalgic, happy paintings - hope you are working on those, too.
ReplyDeleteIf you spend too much time looking backward on things you cannot change, you never appreciate where you are now and where you are going. (but I'm sure you know that) I have to say, even though I am in a happy marriage, your "divorce document" series is making me think of how I can be a better partner and question if I am taking things for granted. Being 40+ myself with six children, I understand many of the issues. I have seen a number of my friends land on their feet after a "bad" divorce and are very happy and much better off right now.
Thank you for your blog and sharing your artwork.
Margaret- thank you for your words, advice and encouragement. I agree with you on all points. Being 40+ and with lots of kids it must be hard to prioritize yourself, but I hope you can find a way to nourish your core and your spouse. I want to write, "I don't know what, where, when it all went wrong. It feels like a surprise." But painting though this I see that that is a heartfelt lie. I see the what, when, where and how... I also see it happened slow and fast and with lots of denial and cover-up. Finally seeing it doesn't make it much easier.
ReplyDeleteThanks for looking at the work. I am going to make happier paintings- I feel them coming!!!